A Setback That Became My Best Teacher

This post is one of my self reflections.

Not every turning point begins with fun and fireworks.
Sometimes, it starts quietly - with a broken plan and a silent room.

I had always dreamed of becoming a famous content creator especially in the field of writing. About 20 years ago, when it was the beginning of online content creation opportunities I applied for a position in a company. I believed that I was personally alligned with that role. I made it to the final round of interview and I was quite sure that I have made it and I will defenitely get the job. 

People around me friends and family kept assuring me that I will get this job for sure and I started dreaming and picturing around that job and title and future. 

And ...... nothing happenned. It was all still and silent.

No calls.
No letter.
No mails. Nothing.

Silence and a loud silence. 
I started shattering inside though I kept checking my mails on an hourly basis. When there was nothing, my brain started overthinking.

Questions kept popping up in my mind without knowing answers.

Questions like - 
            "Did I mess up somewhere?"
            "Was I not good enough?"
            "Did I say too much or too little?
 
That week, every single moment was tense, it was a personal collapse. It was more of heaviness in heart full of dissappointment and self doubt that kept weighing me down and down and it stayed for longer than it should.

But believe me, this incident made me realize a few other things. Life began whispering to me certain things. The whispers started kindling my thoughts. Made me start writing rather start blogging. Thus my first blog was born. (rajmiarun.blogspot.com). I started blogging for my own self. Call it anything, writing. Blogging, journaling, I started putting things into words.

No it was just a compilation of all things that I had collected. But now, I have started this blog to pour out all the emotions I had underwent and the lessons learnt from them. 

With deeper understanding and more confidence, I have started writing or rather pouring in my thoughts. 

My dear readers - does this resonate anything? Have you ever bounced back after a failure? Do share your thoughts.

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